“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Cor. 12:9-10
Accepting Christ at an early age, yet struggling to be free from a life bound by panic attacks, depression, food issues, and fear brought me to a desperate place in my life. Thankfully, through an encounter with the Living God while in college, I realized that I had been living my life all by myself and for myself, with subsequently no victory. The surrender that resulted from that encounter ushered in the most Divine relationship I have ever known and over time released the understanding, power, and truth I needed to be completely free from the bondage I was under.
After years of spending time in God’s presence, reading His word, learning to praise and about grace; His love for me became my life’s force as I walked through the many devastating events that ensued….
God’s grace helped me through the aftermath of an emergency surgery that introduced me to years of the deepest physical suffering I had ever known or thought anyone should ever know. This included many years of operations, hospitalizations, and medical procedures; being told on several occasions that I would not live and of course everything being complicated by the extreme financial challenges, marital strain, hopelessness, and emotional burden that come with these types of fights. God’s grace helped me walk out daily the premature birth of my son, the complications that resulted and all of the additional challenges I faced in fighting for his life as that struggle continued on into his preschool years. God’s grace enabled my heart to be revived again after the heartbreaking loss of my daughter… of which there are still limited words.
After all of this, I can say with all confidence that God’s grace is what has carried me and will be with me anew as I face each difficulty this life might present.
No matter what I have faced; facing it with Jesus and His power and love for me is the only way that I made it, and how I can stand here today in Calvary’s victory and proclaim to you that there is always Hope in Jesus! I also thank God that He sent me a strong husband to walk alongside, my powerful son, countless skilled healers who helped me to freedom, parents that introduced me to Jesus as a child, and my best friends along the way who have supported me, listened to me and just simply loved me. By God’s grace I have been transformed by the renewing of my mind and Him jump-starting my heart back to life time and time again.
You never get over the painful experiences in your life as if to live like they never happened. But, I have learned that in losing everything you can find the Greatest Treasure of All Time woven throughout the fabric of each loss, hardship, and devastation. That treasure to me is, Jesus.
He is my Grace.